Wall of Mouths

Strenght to you, I know what you´re talkin´about here . Don´t give up, there´s a light at the end of the tunnel. I saw it too years ago when I was given it up in “my battle”. Lucky I was, and I´m still here and if I have to go I go with my boots on!
So strenght to you and don´t give up!
Petri

Thank heavens someone knows what I’m on about.

I have social outings like poetry nights where I do an open mic where I perform poetry, and that kind of leads to a few drinks that for me, goes on for a few hours. Now if I can just stick to soft drinks and make that last the best part of an hour and ask someone for a lift to avoid that walk to the pub, I should be fine and not worry about the carpet in my bedroom being wet.

As for the money box, that sounds great. In fact, I have a money jar, where I put my spare coins and odd note. This time last year I had something like 200 quid in there. As my drinking has worsened some what, there’s barely forty.

Now I ask this to kossu and Muskeg - did you both have creative hobbies like music and writing to kill the time when you were trying to give up drinking? When in the right frame of mind, I do a bit of writing. I write between an hour to three hours and the time flies. I find with drinking it is often long and nothing really happens apart from noticing that I just talk bollocks to someone I don’t know.

By the way, any alternatives to beer - NOT SHANDY, may I add. Tried to cut drinking with that, but that only led to me to go back buying 16 cans of Fosters the next day.

Any suggestions, let me know.

Peace.

You might as well read the easy way to stop drinking by Allen Care.

My apologies to Fatboy. I should really add that i dont actually drink myself, but I was suggesting the money box idea as a way of showing yourself just how much you save by not spendng it on drinking… I mentioned it because I had to have dentist work which required over £800 and I had six months to try and get the money for it, so I started saving every £10 and £20 i could. Eventually I had enough. I have to say..seeing it grow and grow was exciting and eventually having £800 in £10’s and £20’s right there laid out in front of me was amazing. :)

Secondly, you are not alone in feeling suicidal and depressed and alone. in 2004 I went through a horrendous experience which involved paranoia, insomnia, nightmares, intense panic attacks, feelings of un-reality ( or whatever you call it )…I wouldnt wish it on anyone…It was terrifying.

Hopefully you can get through it. In my experience, being strong and having friends and family that care about you around you does help. Also, winter is a terribly sad month. I get extremely depressed in Winter and I dont even know why… I know its Seasonal Affected Disorder…but I occasionally find myself suddenly feeling panicky and tearful for no reason.

:) I honestly hope you can get better.

I wish I could say “do this” or “do that”, as I am familiar with what you’re going through (depression, heavy drinking), but seeing as how the things I’ve tried (alcohol: trying to cut down on drinking by going cold turkey, depression: seeing a therapist once every one/two weeks + medication) have not yielded any form of success I can’t help you, other than wish you all the best. Hang in there mate.

I recently went to a seminar about the workings of the brain. It could be very intersting for you to read up on how that part of your brain that controls habits and anxiety really works. That way you can try to understand why you do it, and knowing why you do something is really the first step. I’m not talking about the social reasons (trauma etc.), but the neurological ones.

I have a father with a mental disorder (obsessive behaviour and panic attacks). he has been in and out of psychiatric clinics for more than 3 years now (he’s back in one now), and I never quite understood why nothing worked with him. Thanks to this seminar, i know what goes on in his brain, and i was able to explain it to my mother why he behaved like that. It was like a weight being lift off our shoulders because the big question WHY is answered now. And also the fact that it had nothing to do with her made her cope with it in a better way.

I have a whole list of recommended reading, all scientific ones (no carma, hippie bull shit). PM me if you would like to have it.

Ronald wrote:

My advice to you would be to go and practice a physical sport, running, swimming, football…anything you like. Maybe If your body is fitter so will your mind be. Don’t rush it, take it one step at a time. You might meet other people with whom you can practice that sport you like and afterwards that one or two pints won’t hurt…give it a try: It has worked for a few friends of mine who picked up running…they don’t have many moddswings any more and they feel better about themselves!

Good luck!

Yep I too would highly recommend they gym or any form of exercise. Stick into the gym and you will be as buff as fuck in no time which will make you feel mentally better and will raise your self esteem no end. Fact.

Have you tried this route before? Surly calling your self Fatboy hardly raises your spirits every time you type it in here?