Wall of Mouths

Been listening to Zebrahead - MFZB a lot recently, I can relate to a lot of the songs so well now and they’re top class tunes to boot.

I had to live with step father and step mother couple of years. I was 13 at that time and I felt really bad ´cos they hated me and I didn´t even know why or the reason why I can´t live with my father. I lost my little brother for ages after I moved away which made me sad. The memories from those days sometimes still got me and I feel depressed then. I was a happy kid before that, but then I realized that assholes rule the world and you can´t help it. So nowadays I try to think positive no matter how difficult it is. Or then I think about sick things happening around the world and my problems seems to be quite small.
So, hang on there! Let´s show that we are going to win those bastards and demons inside.

actually.. i dont know how people like you feel.. their feelings.. dont get me wrong, its just not that easy looking inside someone who is depressed… i just can imagine it, and i think i can that really good, still its not that easy… but i think the more you talk with us, the earlier you can handle them!

and i am really proud of those people who care about you.. say persons who need to let steam of.. or simply just need to talk… thats a really cool attitude!

I’m going to get shot down for this but, The older i get (I’m 26 now) the more i realize that what goes into your head has an impact on your feelings and thoughts. When i was younger i read nietzsche, mein kampf, lot of irish history etc etc, listend to slayer when i was in angry mood alice in chains when i wanted to die blah blah. All this gets internalized and you hold onto some of the aggression/depression you get by listening/reading this stuff. This has NOTHING to do with the material loads of people listen to this with no effect (me now). But when youre low or vulnerable this stuff can make things worse.

Maybe for a while you should change what you read/listen to and see how that goes. listen to a bit of cheese metal and read funny books. I recommend Fargo Rock City its a good take on metal and FUNNY. And the other thing to do is stop thinking about it all too much, I work as a systems engineer drive an ok car have a house and a girlfriend. bums on the street have nothing and both of us wake and sleep that’s it no difference whatsover apart from comfort levels. and having been a bum on the street when i was 19/20 i can tell you an amazing change is around the corner for you. Flann o brien had a theory that there was no time just the split second after the big bang and that is the only time there is and everything takes place in the same split second people grow old surroundings change you moods change people are born you see therapy? live. It’s the same split second but things change within it, and when you realize that you only have a split second to live your life in it makes it a lot easier and it’s easier to deal with problems (well i think so) BE HAPPY MAN>>>>
I wish it for ya.

I hate to bring this thread up again, but its gotten to the point where I hated the Xmas/New Year period. I had a real few bad days, where my sleep patterns changed, causing mood swings and snapping at my parents, who of all people, have been most understanding of my needs.

I hated the recent New Year period - I couldn’t connect with people, bar a few people who wanted nothing more than a quickie. I left the whole thing at quarter to one and wasn’t even off my head.

Shit, I feel really bad, just for getting that off my chest.

Misanthropologist wrote:

New Year (and that’s nothing to do with alcohol)

*ahem* :D

This is the best thread i’ve ever read in WOMs. Seriously, it’s very cordial. I’m also known as a depressive person around my friends. Sometimes i really think that would be because of my star sign pisces.
Believe me pisces = depression if there’s enough difficulties around it.

If we think that the life becomes not easier after every other day everyone will often have hard times. So for me it is useful to talk with my close friends and i think it can be useful for anyone. Additionally, i see that WOMs is also a good place for talking, either.

have a nice time &
don’t burden yourself too much

if there’s anyone left on this thread who is taking it as a real thread then i’d like to add my few points. for the rest of you who are taking the piss, you know who you are, then fuck off and die.

personally i have spent the last 6 or 7 years of my life going through various stages of feelings. unlike most of the people that i know, i seem to go through bad patches that last much longer than whatever my problem at the time warrants. being depressed is not a good thing. it’s a terrible thing. i have been so low before that in my head i have managed to convince myself that my best friends hate me. it’s absurd for me to think that now because once i got out of that hole, i realised how it wasn’t true at all. i have been at the point of not being able to “hack it any more” but what i had to do was actually tell my closest friends about it. and not just to say “oh, i’m a bit pissed off” or whatever but to really explain to them how bad i felt. i explained that it may make them feel a bit arkward at the time but there were things that i had to say. i think if anyone has a close friend, then they can manage whatever is going on. most of my so called friends are not too reliable. i have a few who are and thank god they actually came through for me. talking about bad things or how you’re feeling is not a bad thing at all. no-one will judge you about it. we all feel like shit sometimes. i do most of the time.

At the moment, I’m alright. I’ve managed to give up smoking (for now, at least), and tried not to let those thoughts get to me. I’ve done a lot of reading, writing, played loads of music and played guitar (going through a Biohazard phase at the mo). Currently getting into photography, having taken loads of pictures.

Just thought I’d let you all know of how I’m feeling.

fatboy wrote:

At the moment, I’m alright…

Just thought I’d let you all know of how I’m feeling.

that’s good to hear man. keep at it.

I’ve been feeling down again too, have in fact started going to the uni counselling service.

I remember myself from my youth, i was so closed and introvent person, talked to none, had no friends, no girlfriend. My dad and mom are too old, cannot communicate with them. I had my big brother at a psychitrist clinic for months, i failed the exams for the university, failed, failed, failed… One day they took me to the army. I was out of cliques, lived at my own world. I get tired, my body, my soul,my nerves… I was out of everything, I started to losing my mind. Finally they took my to the clinic to calm down… Now I’m watched by psychotherapist and I take medication: 3 pills of ladose, 1 stedon and 1 abilify per day. I’m working only 4-5 hours per day. I can’t afford more hours.
What’s my point? There always be a worse situation than yours… I think I’m rising up now (as T? sing)

RISE UP MAKE YOURSELF WELL

For some reason, I’m in a right weird mood. Had a few bad days then found myself drinking, not giving a shit for the shit state I’m in, yet drinking none the less.

I know this is bad, yet drinking has become an anti-depressent rather than a depressent. There is never an end when it comes to booze, is there.

However, I’m doing pretty well with a photography course I’m doing. I’ve been told I could make a tenner or two, yet that’s not the point; I was told I had an eye for subjects and that what matters.

Anti - depressents - tough one that. They work to an extent but they are definatly not the be all end all. However, I’ve had electric shock like feelings in my body if I haven’t taken them for two days.

In two words, bloody awful.

Dermot wrote:

I’m a bit wary of anti-depressants myself.

They didn’t do me any good. messed me up more, it has to be said. But if it works for anyone else, then good for them.