Wall of Mouths

Even to a pensioner with a heart condition?

NO LIGHTHEARTEDNESS IN THE DEPRESSION THREAD. It’s the law, don’t you know.

You want to watch your step mate, or not_that_kind_of_guy will throw a hissy fit again.

Wow, reading some of these posts made me realise that a lot of Therapy? fans do connect because they share the same feelings Andy expresses in his lyrics.

Well, count me in. I’m 22 and I’ve been feeling depressed ever since puberty. It’s like a big black bird sitting on my head that won’t ever go away and let me feel happy.

What’s worst is that I don’t even have a real reason for feeling so miserable all the time. I’ve got a wonderful girlfriend and loving parents and a few real friends. Still, every day seems black to me. Especially the mornings make me feel like shit, when people are oh so busy and full of energy. The nights are usually better. At night I’m creative, sometimes even convinced I could go on to do something useful with my talents.

Mostly, though I have no idea where my place in life is. I can’t see myself working 9 to 5 (or let’s be realistic about it: it’s 9 to 9 in most jobs today) for 40 years in my life. That sounds so fucking lazy and spoiled, but I just can’t see how that’s the purpose of life. If you love what you’re doing then surely it will be no problem, but how many people do? 40 years of beavering away and the rest is spare time to spend at the pub getting drunk or raising a kid to go through the same routine? Is that it?

Dammit, maybe I’m just a member of a useless, whining generation that’s over-analysing everything. Everytime I’m down I’m feeling guilty at the same time, because so many other people have REAL problems and I’ve got all possibilities and won’t stop bitching. But then again, who can say what “real” problems are? If you’re genuinely miserable all the time, isn’t that a real problem? It’s really fucked up.

What I’m trying to say is that I can really identify with other users who said they’re feeling bland, not miserable enough to kill themselves, but far from happy. I envy people who can be positive about everything, but advice like “think positive thoughts” is like telling a broken leg to heal. It doesn’t really help much. Some people just don’t have the ability to look on the bright side of life.

The only thing that gives me a bit of comfort is the thought that maybe the meaning of life is to go through all the shit and the good times, too, and come out on the other side as a better person.

Sorry for that “spiritual” touch there, I just thought I’d share my feelings as good as I can.

I’ve just read the last two posts, and somewhat feel to agree about going through the same route that everyone else goes through - work, go home watch the telly or get pissed whilst trying to raise a kid or two. What a dull life. The very life that my parents lead (not that I’ve got anything against them; its the only thing they know).

Since I came out at 22 (gay, that is) I thought life would somewhat be a little different, special perhaps. How wrong was I. Materialism, bitchyness, selfishness, backstabbing run through the gay community. What friendships I’ve had, one 2 one or platnoic, have never lasted. And its the straight person syndrome - work and get pissed in the evening.

I might have a lot of bad days, but surely there’s something better than following the herd. I do a lot of writing with the ambition of getting published. If it fails, so what, I did my best. I read a lot, play guitar for my own pleasure, do loads of writing - anything that doesn’t seem ‘normal’, shall we say.

Join the Foreign Legion :) Money for old rope, so I hear.

You could ask someone about it here:

http://www.militaryforums.co.uk/forums/viewtopic.php?p=186957

mrs h wrote:

Join the Foreign Legion :) Money for old rope, so I hear.

I am miserable and depressed…because the bottom has dropped out of my Old Rope business. Apparently some interfering woman told everyone another outlet that was dealing in the stuff…:(

…you seem to imply that there are civilised Welsh tribes…?

Pip wrote:

Hello people

I’d stop boozing if I was you.

Good man - keep pushing forwards. I always find it hard to drag myself out of looking back at crap from the past - at the moment i’m an a good place - i have worries but the fact that I’m thinking about getting on with things helps.

My dear friend fatboy, you’ve got a world to gain and it looks like you’re doing better than when you started this thread. That means you have courage. I respect you for that. I recognise your problems because someone very close to me deals with more or less the same ones.

I can only wish you strength and courage to go on with your life. If you ever feel the need to have chat, just drop me a line. I’m honest.

3ddo - why are you having to tell us you’re honest?! I bet you sell used cars for a living don’t you?!

Be honest!! :D

Good comment though - you’ve got a world to gain, i’m going to use that in a lyric. :)

i just re-read this whole thread. and sam (mr self destruct) sorry, i never did give you that apology. so please accept this as one.

Accept it now, for fuck’s sake. Life too short.

You should have learned your lesson when you nearly drowned yourself in the pub by acting like a tw4t! :p